Unhappy woman in an abusive relationship

31st October 2016

I can’t believe it – I actually like working on Mondays! I never thought I would ever say that. Everyone is just so nice and it is a great feeling working as part of an awesome team! I just need to try to leave work on time. I don’t mind doing extra work and I like to make sure projects are completely finished when possible before I return home, but the others say (jokingly) that I make them look bad doing that.

The doorbell rang at least five times with trick or treaters. I bought lots of sweets and mini-chocolates. Some of the children were greedy and tried to take a handful when they were only supposed to take just one! I was tempted to say trick to see what would happen. One of my friends tried that years back and their house and car was covered in egg, flour and toilet paper!

I should be sleeping now since I’ve got a big day tomorrow, but I don’t like sleeping during Halloween. All of those scary supernatural films I’ve watched relentlessly play in my mind. I’m going to try now – maybe sleep with a nightlight just this once. Just a few more hours and this spooky night will be over!

2nd November 2016

I went this evening with Amara to the Odeon in Leicester Square. It was a spur-of-the-moment thing that we decided after leaving work, but I’ve always wanted to be more spontaneous. It wasn’t my usual kind of film – it was a French romantic comedy with English subtitles. My French is quite good, but not brilliant enough to understand what was going out without reading. Still, it was fun trying something different and broadening my experiences.

It’s a shame there are no more Orange Wednesdays. I loved going to the cinema two for the price of one – it brings back good memories. It’s so expensive nowadays, especially if you want to go for a meal as well. I’ll have to buy some insurance on Compare the Market to get Meerkat Movies. That way I can get 2 for 1 tokens on Tuesdays or Wednesdays!

4th November 2016

Friday evening was the best hitting the town with Brandon, Amara and Sebastian! We went to an Italian restaurant in Soho followed by a wine bar.

Even though we’ve only known each other a short while, it feels like we have known each other for years. Sebastian feels like the big brother I never had. I cautiously chose a margherita pizza – a wise decision! I’m not too confident eating spaghetti in public – I get it everywhere lol.

I think Brandon likes me – I kept catching him smiling at me. But that could be because he is extremely friendly. I don’t want to read too much into things. Besides, I just got my career started so I should concentrate on that. Let’s just see what happens. After all, (as my mum says) what will be will be.

17th November 2016

I didn’t know Brandon was a pianist! He took his grade 8 exam four years ago. He’s of a high standard so we have decided to perform a piano duet for our Christmas party. I’ll play the more technically demanding part. I’m a bit nervous at the thought of performing to my work colleagues, but on the plus side, at least I’ll have more opportunities to spend time with him. I’ll have to practise everyday to make sure we’ve got the best chance of the performance going smoothly – I can’t stand mistakes! We’ve got just over a month – it’s on the 20th December. It’s just a matter of finding a suitable piece.

Brandon thinks it’s amusing that I’m stressed about it when I’m the one who is more experienced. I’m not. Well, just a bit. It’s amazing how calm he is about everything – he just takes things in his stride with that cheeky grin on his face. He has a piano at his flat so we can practice there (that will save me from the embarrassment of my family interrogating him lol). He has even promised to get it tuned before I come over!

On Saturday we’re going to Yamaha Music on Wardour street to hunt for sheet music. I’m looking forward to it!

18th November 2016

I bumped into him today, with little Elijah.

Why now?

He seemed startled to see me and stopped to say hello but I just continued past them both before he could get the words out. It took every ounce of strength not to look back at him. I suppose I would have run into him at some point.

I don’t know what I feel. I had hoped I wouldn’t feel anything, but there’s a part of me that still cares for him and part of me that is still angry. How? I’ve missed that handsome face more than I realised, but he’s not worth the misery I know he’ll surely bring. I am starting a new chapter and he burnt the bridge of any possible relationship between us. I can admit that I haven’t moved on as much as I initially thought, but one thing is for certain.

There will be no going back.

Will our Diary Writer be able to keep her promise? Find out in Chapter 14…


  • How long does it take to get over someone?
  • Should you build up a great friendship with someone first before you consider dating them?

Missed some? Catch up here:

Chapter 1   *   Chapter 2   *   Chapter 3   *   Chapter 4   *   Chapter 5   *   Chapter 6   *   Chapter 7   *   Chapter 8   *   Chapter 9   *   Chapter 10   *   Chapter 11   *   Chapter 12

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